I Miss Her

Five years later, and I still miss her.

Hit me like a ton of bricks this morning.

Total melt-down at my desk this morning (thankfully before students arrived) brought on by a stupid email that should never have bothered me as much as it did.

Why do I feel so raw this year? Why THIS year?

Is it because as my boys get older, I realize they have never ever had a photo of them and my mom? Is it because as the boys get older, I realize how much time really has passed and that I'm just not over having lost her so early?

I miss my mom so much.